Dating when in early sobriety
I don’t know the answer to that, as my thinking was, and is, deluded — only now I hope less so, but to claim perfect clarity would mean I had attained sainthood, and as we know, we are not saints.But this was, at that time, the kind of man I was attracting. And wouldn’t you just know it, these men were not good for my level of serenity.
Those feelings I thought were love were nothing of the sort, they were romantic obsession and intrigue, which I used to stir up in the shit pot to distract me from my path, from my connection to my Higher Power. First of all, there really isn’t one, because I am whole and complete and happy and I am not looking for anything.
Our criterion becomes more about finding someone who will bring something valuable to the table, because we know we are going to do the same. Here we are, trying to find our way, and yet losing ourselves at the same time.